Loading Day Number 2

So this morning I was only up .2 from yesterday. I ate as much as possible. I had bacon, bread, cheese, ice cream, etc... I was so stuffed. I even used my son's oily sunscreen when we went to the pool. I bought some oil free Coppertone Kids sunscreen today, yesterday my husband had found some Aveeno and we bought it but there's barely enough for 1 or 2 applications.

Today I've been eating things I will miss, I had a grilled stuffed taco for lunch from Taco John's. This became a favorite food of mine during pregnancy. I figured this would be the thing I miss most so I made sure to save it for today.

So after loading day one I'm at 208.2. I really thought I would have gained more. I am ready and scared for tomorrow. I spent an hour cutting strawberries and freezing them yesterday and weighing meats. My scale is awful so I'll be purchasing a new one this week. I've found several recipes to try but nothing that screams delicious at me yet so I'm hoping to find some more today.

My son is going to be napping then I think we are going back to the pool. Not a lot of excitement but I figured I'd share how my first loading day went.

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Today is my first loading day. I have no clue what I'm going to eat, I'm just planning on getting rid of any temptations in the kitchen. I spent so much time focusing on where to inject that afterward I realized my alcohol swab was still on the counter. Ugh, I wont do that again, I feel like a moron, I hope I'm good.

Starting weight = 208. I know, it's bad. How did that happen? That's about what I weighed when I had my son, and I gained 50-55 lbs in my pregnancy. Speaking of my son, I will put up a pic of him. He's my world, a complete and utter example of a bratty toddler, but he's my bratty toddler.

Today the family is supposed to go pay rent, go pick up my husband's wedding ring from the jeweler which had to be sized again, and go grocery shopping. My husband made me angry last night, he told me had no faith in me doing this. He said he wishes me to succeed but does not think I will as I am not good at finishing anything. Vote of confidence for me...

Learning to Love Vegetables

First of all, my HCG should arrive today, this means I will be starting tomorrow. I am excited and nervous. So one of the biggest hardships I will soon face is learning to love vegetables. This could be why I have a problem with my weight to begin with. I am not a huge fan of vegetables, especially plain. For example: salad with no dressing or croutons. I tend to prefer my celery with peanut butter on it. This could lead to a problem since eating veggies is a huge part of the protocol. I'm hoping some of you out there many have some helpful hints on veggies you really like or ways to make them delicious. To be honest, there are many veggies I have not even tried. The ones on the protocol I haven't even tried are radishes, cucumbers, asparagus, and fennel. If you have any ideas let me know! I do like lettuce and celery but I don't think that alone will get me through, plus I'm up to trying new things. I bought a food scale yesterday. I can't believe I'm doing this.

My goal for the weekend is to finish all of my Diet Cherry Pepsi in the fridge so that there will be no temptation.

My toddler was dissecting my computer yesterday while I was folding laundry and he removed several letters. I have successfully put them back on but the A is hardly working.

My husband, a friend, and I took my son swimming for the first time yesterday. I thought he would absolutely love it since we have to fight with him to get him out of the bathtub. I was wrong, he screamed and cried. After 10 minutes of screaming we got out and sat by the pool. I seriously thought that we would be hated by the entire neighborhood by the time we got out. Shortly after a cute little girl came to the pool with her parents, she was younger than my son and she was having so much fun in the pool. Her dad said the secret was force. My son decided to give it another go since this girl was playing with a ball in the pool and he ended up slowly making his way into the water. He ended up having an OKAY time. We're going to try again this soon.

Oh and on our way to the pool we saw a car on fire in our neighborhood. It was crazy. You use the letter A a lot and this is driving me insane.

Since I talk about my family a lot I will post pictures of them, I just have to pick one or two I like out of the hundreds I have.

Blogging Day 1

My best friend has started blogging, it's really pretty fun to read. Like a sneak peak into the lives of others that you probably shouldn't know about. We're supposed to be blogging about our lives and our journey through the HCG diet. She has already started it, I haven't because I'm a wuss. I'm terrified I wont be able to follow it, I'm addicted to diet cherry Pepsi, I love chocolate, and I'm a fan of all things forbidden. I am the one who researched this diet for months, decided to do it, chickened out, and she decided to do it. She's lost over 20 lbs in 2 weeks. It's crazy huh? Thus from her success I have decided to attempt to make a severe change in my lifestyle. Now I just have to wait for the stuff to get here, hopefully this weekend.

Until then, I've lost 7 lbs in the last 10 days on my own. Mostly on my own, with a little help from diet pills and exercise.

Lately I've been so frustrated with life. My toddler is beyond the terrible stage, my husband has been irritating me, and I want to escape to my own little world. I hope that through some healthy dieting along with some blogging I'll feel better and get through it.